Yesterday, I awoke with a heavy heart. I stumbled out of bed and got dressed for another hour long drive to my job, where I was scheduled to work a tedious 9 hour shift stacking time and counting the minutes until it was time to turn around and head back up the jam packed freeway to my brand new home. I would have walked into the house exhausted, crabby and ready for bed, in no mood to spend any precious time with my girl, my kids, grand baby or my puppies. It would have been one more wasted day to cross off of my calendar. As I crept along the highway, I realized with grief, that I had not written a single story in weeks, nor had I attended a WW meeting or done a single walk or workout since I had left Michigan and still I continuously felt rushed for time. As I pulled into the driveway and settled my car into a parking spot, I sat and stared at the building that had come to feel like a prison to me. Suddenly my phone went off and I looked at the screen to see a message from my Snowflake. It said simply- “I miss you already”. To which I replied “You have no idea how bad I want to turn around and come home.” I sighed and opened the car door when another message arrived “Ok, do it.” I stared at the screen in disbelief and finally answered her with “Wait…really?” Seconds later came a message that gave me the audacity to change the direction of my life. The message said “Just come home to me and be done with that.” I started the car and backed out of the parking lot, never to return.
Yesterday I made the decision to take a chance and leave the protection of my own little safety net in order to pursue a dream that I have had for most of my life. I want to spend the next decade of my life writing books and helping others. The job that I thought was holding me up…was actually only holding me back. My dearest Snowflake did not give “permission” to walk away, but instead she gave me the confidence and courage to dream a little bigger and walk a little taller. Her loyalty, trust and support will propel me to heights I have never allowed myself to even consider! Today, I begin a journey of epic significance. There are things I want to do with my life and now I have the time and energy to pursue those dreams. Thank you my love for pushing me out of the nest and giving me the wings to fly. I love you so much. The world is ours!