The Good Stuff

There will be days when you will want to give up. Walking away will seem much easier than hanging on. You will tire of the day to day struggle you endure to keep moving forward and inevitably wonder to yourself, ”Why is it so hard to just be normal?” It will be on this dark and dreary day that you will close your eyes to who you are, and instead, beat yourself up for who you are not.
You may have forgotten the pain your body endured every morning as you hauled your massive body out of bed. Remember how your knees and ankles crackled and popped when you stepped down on the bedroom floor? Do you recall when your current “Fat” pants were so tight that you could not even get the zipper up? How about family shopping sprees at the mall; while everyone zipped in and out of store after store, you picked from the 3 hideous outfits they carried in your size at the “Mundane Bryant” store for portly women. Remember how the steering wheel of your car rubbed your stomach, every time you turned a corner and how a flight of stairs turned your legs to jelly? Yep, that was your life. Sometimes we forget.
No, every day is not a perfect day. Weeks may come and go when you are stalled and nothing has happened. You must keep in mind, that every time you step on the scale there is no promise that it will go down or a guarantee that just because you showed up for your Weight Watchers meeting, it will never go up. Whether you are losing or gaining, life goes on and as long as you are alive and breathing there will be temptation. There will be graduation parties, Thanksgiving feasts, and let’s not forget, grandma’s delectable Christmas cookies. Your little ghosts and goblins will return home with bags of bite-size candy bars and yummy popcorn balls every Halloween night, and when your birthday rolls around this year, will you honestly be able to say no to a little slice of your favorite butter cream frosted birthday cake? It is safe to say…probably not. Food is a huge component of celebration and camaraderie and let’s face it, the center of all of our holiday traditions. Is it really fair to have to give it all up? The good stuff… isn’t that what life is all about?
You obviously cannot boycott the family Thanksgiving dinner or strawberry shortcake for the rest of your life; however, you can learn to focus on the quality of what you choose instead of the quantity. A bite of everything on the thanksgiving table will have to satisfy what the eleven pound plate of stuffing, mashed potatoes and gravy once did. You cannot succeed on this lifetime journey of salvation and self-preservation without rewarding yourself every now and again.
One of the greatest lessons you can learn is to savor that first bite. Your taste buds were created to focus on the first sweet or salty taste of everything you eat. They dance in elation when you let the first bit of food linger on your tongue; nothing is quite as tasty after that. So why not make your life all about the first morsel…the first nibble….the first bite. When your sweetheart gives you that heart shaped box of chocolates on Valentine’s Day, look for your favorite piece. Consider and contemplate, relish the aroma and then carefully choose. Savor that choice and enjoy that single piece of heavenly chocolate. You will eventually learn that life is all about the choice and not the reward and you will be so much happier when you learn to appreciate the experience instead of the indulgence.

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  1. Laura says:

    So needed this today! Thank you!! Having a hard time lately getting back to the day not revolving around food. When it isn’t about food, the living really begins.

  2. Susan Kasmar says:

    Alana,

    I truly love how you are able to describe feelings. We have all felt, just the way you describe the feelings, as you are experiencing them. Your short stories truly encourage me to move on and face all my demons and not eat them. Keep on writing, I’m looking forward to your book.

    Sue

  3. Karla says:

    I treasure every word you write. I hang on to each sentence rereading it, trying to make the moment last. It’s strange you are writing my story and we have never crossed paths.
    You probably have no idea how many lives you are touching.
    I crave your next story.

  4. Natashia says:

    Hi Alana,
    I was happy to see a new story. I’m having such a hard time. It’s just food, I chant to myself constantly. Yet, it’s all consuming and my enemy. Someday I will conquer this evil. Just not today.

  5. Karen says:

    Alana,

    You have such a wonderful style of writing. I feel like your here talking to me. I imagine your voice being soft, soothing, and caring.

    I needed this blog so much. I over indulged on sweets on the weekend. Everything you said makes so much sense, but when I am in the moment, I lose all feelings of sense. I even have a little voice in my head saying it is impossible for me to win the battle with sweets. I don’t have them in the house, but…I have about 50 more pounds to lose, but I feel so discouraged.

  6. And I agree, that’s why i keep “bite size” pieces of chocolate (70% cocoa) in my pantry. For those moments when I need a little experience to lift my mood! It’s not full of all the bad sugary stuff, it’s actually healthy and I don’t feel guilty when eating it! ;O)

  7. Debra Haines says:

    Alana,
    Thank you so much for a wonderfully written essay. It touched me, and every word was oh so true for me.
    I belong to a wonderful group, TOPS NY306. I would like your permission to read your essay to all my friends there. I know they will appreciate your words also.
    Please keep writing.
    Debra

  8. Alana says:

    Karen you can Lose 50 pounds…..I felt hopeless when I was faced with being 350 pounds OVERWEIGHT! I have lost 250…and am still losing…it is a long slow process…but one you can live with because you still get to enjoy everything in moderation. You can do it love…I’d bet on it!
    Alana

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