There will be days when you will want to give up. Walking away will seem much easier than hanging on. You will tire of the day to day struggle you endure to keep moving forward and inevitably wonder to yourself, ”Why is it so hard to just be normal?” It will be on this dark and dreary day that you will close your eyes to who you are, and instead, beat yourself up for who you are not.
You may have forgotten the pain your body endured every morning as you hauled your massive body out of bed. Remember how your knees and ankles crackled and popped when you stepped down on the bedroom floor? Do you recall when your current “Fat” pants were so tight that you could not even get the zipper up? How about family shopping sprees at the mall; while everyone zipped in and out of store after store, you picked from the 3 hideous outfits they carried in your size at the “Mundane Bryant” store for portly women. Remember how the steering wheel of your car rubbed your stomach, every time you turned a corner and how a flight of stairs turned your legs to jelly? Yep, that was your life. Sometimes we forget.
No, every day is not a perfect day. Weeks may come and go when you are stalled and nothing has happened. You must keep in mind, that every time you step on the scale there is no promise that it will go down or a guarantee that just because you showed up for your Weight Watchers meeting, it will never go up. Whether you are losing or gaining, life goes on and as long as you are alive and breathing there will be temptation. There will be graduation parties, Thanksgiving feasts, and let’s not forget, grandma’s delectable Christmas cookies. Your little ghosts and goblins will return home with bags of bite-size candy bars and yummy popcorn balls every Halloween night, and when your birthday rolls around this year, will you honestly be able to say no to a little slice of your favorite butter cream frosted birthday cake? It is safe to say…probably not. Food is a huge component of celebration and camaraderie and let’s face it, the center of all of our holiday traditions. Is it really fair to have to give it all up? The good stuff… isn’t that what life is all about?
You obviously cannot boycott the family Thanksgiving dinner or strawberry shortcake for the rest of your life; however, you can learn to focus on the quality of what you choose instead of the quantity. A bite of everything on the thanksgiving table will have to satisfy what the eleven pound plate of stuffing, mashed potatoes and gravy once did. You cannot succeed on this lifetime journey of salvation and self-preservation without rewarding yourself every now and again.
One of the greatest lessons you can learn is to savor that first bite. Your taste buds were created to focus on the first sweet or salty taste of everything you eat. They dance in elation when you let the first bit of food linger on your tongue; nothing is quite as tasty after that. So why not make your life all about the first morsel…the first nibble….the first bite. When your sweetheart gives you that heart shaped box of chocolates on Valentine’s Day, look for your favorite piece. Consider and contemplate, relish the aroma and then carefully choose. Savor that choice and enjoy that single piece of heavenly chocolate. You will eventually learn that life is all about the choice and not the reward and you will be so much happier when you learn to appreciate the experience instead of the indulgence.