Better not Bitter
There will be days when you feel like giving up. It will, quite possibly be that afternoon when you come to a meeting refreshed, confident and certain that you have had the most productive week one can have on the program. You reconstruct the past seven days in your mind…You skipped the neighbor’s backyard Barbeque on Sunday, and had a salad every day for lunch. You walked an extra lap around the park three times this week and did not touch any of your extra points plus!! You can almost hear the applause as your leader hands you a star…no, TWO stars for having such an incredible week! Oh yeah….this is about to be an epic weigh-in!
You stroll into the office, nearly floating in those brand new pink and silver Nikes that you bought last weekend; the ones that match perfectly, the trusty Fitbit strapped to your arm. You feel like a million bucks as you stand there in line waiting for your turn. This morning, you came upon an adorable pair of jeans in the back of your closet. They slipped on quite easily today despite the fact that last month you couldn’t squeeze your right butt cheek into them, even with the help of a shoehorn and a bottle of baby oil! You smile and make small talk with the other women in line, while in your head you are searching for the perfect response to throw back at the women behind the counter when she says “Congratulations….that’s a 6 pound loss this week”. In your mind, you open your eyes wide and say …”Oh really! Well I sure wasn’t expecting that” or maybe “I guess all of my hard work did pay off”. You are so lost in the daydream that the annoyed cashier behind the counter is forced to snap her fingers in front of your face to bring you back to reality. “Step up on the scale” she barks out. You gracefully mount the scale as though you are about to be crowned Miss America. Your thank you speech sits there on the tip of your tongue, waiting. Finally the woman glances up and says….nothing. NOTHING? You stare at her, waiting impatiently. “Well?” you finally blurt out. “Well what?” she volleys back. Nervously leaning from side to side, you snarl, “Well how much did I lose?” You feel a dab of perspiration on your forehead as you wait for her response. “She looks you square in the eye and says, “You didn’t. You gained a half a pound, SEE”…and she shoves your weekly tracker under your nose. You glance down and see it, right there in black and white. An obscenity rushes past your lips and your cheeks turn a crimson red as the elderly woman behind the counter looks at you in horror. The room has gone silent and you become quite uncomfortable as everyone turns to stare. So many emotions come over and what’s worse, you feel as though you just gained 40 pounds, instead of just a half of one. You scramble off of the scale and slink to the back of the room, where you hang your head and tiptoe out the door, skipping the meeting entirely.
Everyone has found themselves there, on that scale, expecting a huge loss but gaining instead. We have all felt so defeated that we went home without even staying for our weekly words of wisdom. It happens. Deal with it, accept it and change it. This is not the time to quit or take a break from the program. These are the days when you look beyond the number and see the value in your other accomplishments. For instance, appreciate the reality that you were able to fit into those adorable jeans today. Maybe you should think about the extra laps you were capable of walking around the park this week, when just 6 short months ago you thought you might have a coronary while walking across the Walmart parking lot. Focus on the positive and work a little harder this week and if that doesn’t work, force yourself to remember how you felt walking through those front doors and stepping up on that dark and ominous scale for the VERY FIRST TIME. Stop take a breath and tell yourself….”I must never….ever…go back to that.”